Friday, December 5, 2008

I have Epiphanies, too!

This week was a great week! I didn't have a lot going on, at least so it seemed! Maybe I did, but I felt a lot less stressed! I'm trying to cut fear out of my life...every kind! It's actually been very therapeutic. If I'm stressing about something I ask myself, "why am I stressing?", and it always seems to funnel back to some type of fear. Fear that my house won't be clean, fear that "so and so" will be mad at me/or not like me, fear that "such and such" wont be just perfect! Who really cares? By doing this I have been able to concentrate a lot more on whats important, and be able to enjoy life a little more..especially the kids!
Again, I was thinking how I only have such a short time with them, and I started to appreciate every little thing they do...especially Sophia and Ethan. I can't imagine how lonely the house will be next year when he is in Kindergarten! Even though he can entertain himself all day, it will be weird not to have him here! This week I have focused a lot more on the things I will miss when he isn't here!
Today I was playing with Sophia in the toy room! She got really involved in one of her toys, and I nodded off while she was playing with it! She hit me to "wake" me up! I grabbed her hand and said "no" (with my eye's still closed:). The next thing she did took me by surprise. She crawled over to my face and then kissed me to try and wake me up! It was so darn cute! We then made a game of it. I would pretend to sleep again and then she would kiss me, again. I thought about how much I'm going to miss those sweet tender moments that will fade too quickly! I'm so thankful for my little epiphanies that keep me in the moment!