Twilight and the Epiphany

It would only be appropriate that I write about last night's movie experience. Rachel took me to see Twilight. She had really been looking forward to seeing it and I too was interested to see how it would translate onto the big screen. Marco and Michelle took us to Texas Roadhouse for dinner for my birthday. Of course they made sure that I was sung to and sat in the saddle for all to watch. I really didn't mind. We had a great time. Marco and Michelle are the bomb diggity! After dinner we walked to the theaters. I was sure that we would be fine getting there an hour early. I was wrong! The lines were very long and I was sure that I would be looking up Edward's nose for two hours. We got in line and chatted and had a great time. They started to seat for the movie and we noticed that they were actually seating two theaters at the same time. We had great seats and got to enjoy the movie from where we wanted to watch it. There were tons of young girls in the audience giggling and making noises as the movie progressed. I too got caught up in the moment and when Edward started smooching on Bella I was hooting along with everyone :) The movie was pretty good. The only problem I had was the way they had Edward dragging Bella through the forest. They did look like spider monkeys. Hopefully they will fix that in the following movies.

As we were standing there in line I looked over at Rachel. I know that after being married for 12 years that I had looked over at her countless times and not really appreciated what I saw. It was amazing to just look at her and hold her hand and feel her touch. Sorry to get all cheesy, but it was my epiphany. I realized that I had not appreciated her for what she has done for a long time. I had taken her for granted with so many things going on in my life she had no longer been the priority that she once was. I know that with work and church all of us can easily lose perspective. I felt badly when I realized that she had not been my first priority and that I had not shown her the love and consideration that she deserves. For the rest of the night I started to pay real attention to her. Not attention because I was hoping to be rewarded, but attention because that is what I wanted to give her. I wanted to show her that she was important to me. What happened next was amazing. I noticed her again for the first time. I noticed her cute smile, her sparkling eyes.....she is drop dead gorgeous. I felt badly that I had stopped noticing and couldn't remember the last time that I had realized what I had in Rachel. That night Rachel and I stayed up until 2:00 a.m. just talking. It was great. We paid for it the next day, but it was definitely worth it. I missed Rachel as I slept. I woke up and just stared at her while she slept. I started to get a sense of what Edward would go through as he stared at Bella as she slept. I took Sophia downstairs and got the kids fed while Rachel slept.

The next morning we had two games to go to. We had Aubrie and Boston's game to go to first. The game was the last of the season! I am glad that we no longer have games. It is fun while they last and it is fun to watch the kids play, but I like my Saturdays and the games really cut into that. I will continue to support the kids in their activities. I am just glad they are over as of today. At the game I did my duties to help the team out. I like to help out and encourage the kids. I was sure to go over to Rachel and give her a squeeze or a hug between innings. One of the other moms looked over and commented on my affection. I felt badly that it had been noticed only because it had been lacking before. I will make sure that it is normal going forward. I am so grateful to Rachel for all that she does for me and for the wonderful person that she is. I am not perfect, but I am going to try much harder to make her the priority in my life.